OH FUCK!

yes, yes. yes. i am officially. turning. insane. i have not watched this week of antm 8. i always always always fall asleep RIGHT after i got home for this past 2 weeks. whether its at 8pm or 9pm or 7pm id take a bath, wash my hair, and then fall asleep with the towel on my head. id be like that every single day.

so basically im a money-wasting piece of garbage.

listening to jose gonzalez newly downloaded "veneer" album. gyah! trivial tidbits.

gua merasa tua dijalan. jalanan jakarta macet. gua merasa tua sendirian. gua..nggak punya energi dan semangat yang sama dengan anak-anak yang baru lahir di tahun 90.

hidup ini adalah pilihan, tapi bagi gua, hidup ini hanya penuh dengan pilihan yang sama sekali nggak gua pilih.
ah tai lahh. kuliah MPK Tai.

yah tidak boleh begitu. komitmen adalah komitmen. i made a deal with the devil. so basically im screwed. screwed.

jay z's "song cry" is the best rap song. ever. ever..
chaka khan is the best singer alive..
indomie is my favorite meal..
rizki maulidani is my favorite person..
fucking corporate everything is my biggest hypocrisy. i just cant afford it anymore.
i have no friends. im a loser.
no i really do think that. well except for my boyfriend.
im always mushy and sad inside. yet i hate the melancholic, shoegazing, wrist slitting people just as much as you.

just as much as you.

a life that has no meaning. a being that does without feeling. a body with no soul in it. a stomach with no food in it. a head with no brain in it. a pocket with no money in it. i am an empty shell.

i am hollow.

gua mau solat dulu..maybe it helps..

x(